Sheila Kitzinger described surfing the waves of labour contractions as a sport she could do. Plenty of other women get the bug and find it hard to give up the high of another labour and birth.
Yet, once your family is big enough, you have to stop getting pregnant. Whatever the pleasures of labour there comes a time when you know you will experience it no more. It is a draw for many women who love the cocktail of surging hormones, the excitement of the unknown, the anticipation that the baby is about to arrive, the fascination of each parturition being different, the powerful, demanding, sharp sensation of your own body, your uterus, working effectively. Then there’s the puzzle of finding the best accommodation, do you need a companion or solitude, does movement help or is stillness better? Is it eased by being upright or do you want to rest? Can you do both? Do you want to be immersed in water or on dry land? Keep silent or moan, curse… The time comes in a woman’s life when all of that is past.
Some of us have found another sport that we can do. I have become a runner, after a fashion. Running is a low-tech sport, requiring no equipment except for a decent pair of running shoes. You can wear any old soft stretchy clothes, such as leggings and a T shirt.
It involves no special pitch, facilities or expensive membership. If you are a woman who can go the course of labour, you can become a runner. Running requires the discipline of putting one foot in front of the other, over and over again, and keeping the momentum up when you want to stop. There are parallels with labour. The need to keep going. The sense, sometimes, of being more tired than in pain. The need to find a way of adjusting mentally; to relax as much as possible the muscles that are not essential to the act. To think when it demands an effort that it will not go on for ever. To know that you can do it.
I run more now at 56 than I have ever run before. But don’t get me wrong, I don’t run much. I don’t run with other people nor am I part of a club. I’ve never entered an organised event. I don’t know how far I run. I’ve been out running on and off since my twenties, very much more off than on. About five years ago, I started to run throughout the year, but very occasionally. It was hard work, though also liberating to be jogging up the road. As we get older our physical movements become so much less carefree and expressive. It can set you free to be floating, bobbing along. Feeling the air around you, aware of the weather on your face. Important to be warm enough, yet not too hot. Great to feel cool but not cold.
For me getting started meant finding a flat route, and an interesting place with a variety of sections to the route to help me count off the achievement of each phase. I’m really fortunate that I can run from the front door. Just down the road, the level crossing is the first point of interest. Over the green next, passing the children’s playground. I cross the road weaving through the traffic or skipping on the spot till the lights change, then follow the parked cars down to the river. I turn left by the pub and take the road along the river, noting how recently the tide reached up, leaving detritus on the tarmac. Cross between the bollards onto the path by the grassy bank and pass the bench dedicated to a husband, father and friend and his ‘round the river walk’. Go under the road bridge, always gracious and now with balustrades renewed. Here there are trees on either side of the path and then the steps to the river for rowers’ access. Soon the boathouse and welly-booted, lycra-clad oarsmen to avoid. Loads of women, too, enjoying being out and active. It’s definitely a quarter of the distance now, perhaps two fifths. That’s a game I play. How far run, how far still to go.
On along the tow-path. Years since a horse walked this way but blackbirds, a robin, and a heron sometimes over the water. The way is shared with dog-walkers, pram-pushers and families on bikes, as well as other runners, always going faster than me. The municipal dump sometimes smells a bit, then the posh flats with balconies. I used to stop at the turn-off for the shops. Now I go on further. To my special tree at the end of the wall. I press my palm on the rough patch and feel its imprint on my skin. Half way! I can turn back now.
Oh the joy of knowing that I’m on the count down, the return stretch. I often blow my nose, switch the iplayer into my left hand, circle my shoulders to shake out the tension, always running on. Slowing if I feel tired. Any pace is good enough, just keep going. In summer the flies hover over the path in clouds; annoying but a distraction. I’m running towards people I passed earlier. I smile, although I’m not sure what the etiquette is with lone men. If in doubt, eyes straight ahead. Luckily the dogs are uniformly well behaved. No harassment there. Soon I’m back at the boats. Is that three quarters done? Well, maybe once I reach the bridge? Definitely then. A bit of downhill before the crematorium. Then the last stretch of trees before its back onto the road. Past the house with the cow in the garden. A full size model! Past the pub and people drinking, smoking outside. Back between the brewery buildings, a whoosh of wind channelled between high walls. Then the sun lights up the green ahead of me. Negotiate the road, back across the park and see the picnickers, the ball-players and the families with little tots. Reach the level crossing and nip across or take the slightly longer route via the footbridge up the road. Sometimes the last bit can be a faster push, sometimes not a bit of it.
Back home, to stretch and puff and feel the warmth in-doors. I did it! That’s done for another month, week, three days, whatever. Waves of happy feelings, body rolling out, resting. The job done.
Last year, I set myself the target to run my personal route 12 times in as many months. This year, I have upped the target to a weekly run and now I’ve switched to an aim of twice a week. This is a sport I can do.
I’ve noticed that several research midwives are runners, too. I wonder whether others see the parallel with labour. I wonder whether they use the same psychological approaches that they used themselves when giving birth, or that they encourage the women in their care to use. Women can prepare for, and become accustomed to, extended periods of demanding physical activity and feel really good about doing it. Even if it is quite an effort.
2 thoughts on “Run and become – a sport I can do”
This is a lovely piece Mary. Such a rarely heard phrase, ” the pleasures of labour.” When else in life does one experience pain that is sharp, positive, purposeful and productive? And I loved the description of the run – a route I’ve walked countless times and can identify so clearly with your description of level crossing to cow via bridges and that whoosh of wind. Thank you. More please!
Thank you Jane! I have put back in the paragraph breaks now so much easier to read. I had beginner’s luck last time. I’m so pleased to liked it. Mmmn, if there are going to be local readers, I’d better check my facts carefully in future. There’s a wee bit of poetic licence in there. Pleased you approve of ‘the pleasures of labour’ and recognised my route.