Today an old friend celebrated the impending arrival of her 3rd child.

Today I cried for the 3rd child we would never have.

Sometimes things just don’t work out the way you expect they will or hope they do. In my head I always dreamed of our perfect family of me, OH and our 3 amazing kids. In my head pregnancy would be enjoyed, loved, cherished and relished. In reality it didn’t work out that way and now I’m left feeling like I’m grieving for the loss of a child I never knew and never will.

Its not that I resent my friends 3rd pregnancy or that I want to take away from her enjoyment and excitement in any way, but this was another reminder of how Mother Natures and my plans didn’t match.

I’ve writen before about how having Hyperemesis Gravidarum in my last two pregnancies effected me and the…